Lately, I’ve been thinking too much about everything.. I couldn't sleep at night.. got headache.. stress... My hubby n I sent our son back to Klang. So that, my MIL will look after him while I’m seeking for a job. I’ve set my goal that I will get a job by the end of this month. But up untill now, I haven't gotten any reply or feedback from any of the company. I made a sacrifice. I gave up breast feeding, I gave up the moment with adam that I suppose to be in. But end up with nothing? What the @#$%!!! Plus, I got asked so many times, nape tak keje? tak sayang ke ade degree? tak boring ke ddk umah? Buat la bisnes ke? Damn!!! Those people just make my stress level rise to the limit...
Have you ever heard about “let go of goals”. Sounds weird right. I read about it last week. To me goal setting is very important since it will provide badly needed and direction to achieve something in our live. But, sometime no matter how hard we try, we cannot control the circumstamces of our life. Either for better or for worse…. Hurmm, acceptable… i think what the author is trying to say is; set a goal + put efford into it + tawakal + dont put to much hope on it = satisfaction.
So, last weekend i told my hubby that i need to refresh my mind. We went out for a date, watched movie, karaoke, window shopped, disturbed my hubby when he’s on his call (did things that we didn’t have chance to do since being a parents). I'm trying to let go of my goal (time to start working). I don’t care about the @#$%^&* job anymore! (klu ade rezeki tak kemana). what I care now is to enjoy life... get rid of all the negative thoughts... my next plan; to get involved in every sport my hubby play, to celebrate new year 2010 at Mataking Island! Yeayy!!! I feel great!!
